I am not here to make things right, because I cannot make things right at all. I am the one to blame for all of this. I am here to admit that I am bad at what I do. I do nothing that seems resemble progress. I am stuck in loop of starting and forgetting. Starting and losing steam. I am not going to lie. This a one time from many times. I am not going to lie that I am big mess because of this. We are living in time if you don't play your cards right, you will not get another deck. I am right now in the situation where I seems to have no deck left. I am stuck in this endless loop of hopelessness in ever getting my shit together. I am 30 years and I don't know what I am talking. I am not sure if there is another person my age in the same dilemma. I think people should get their act together by certain time. I mean no one could stay in endless loop of making stupid commits and forgetting the commitments that he made. Seriously, How long can some do that for? One year? Two?